Consequences

I died as I hung up the phone;
And I have died a thousand times
Since she chose to hang up on me.
Each night I gaze into the mirror
And see my soul staring back at me.

I lie here alone every night now,
Cradled by happy memories.
She lies in the arms of another.
Strong arms, warmer arms, better
Than I could ever train mine to be.

And I see it all:
My soul laid bare
My heart torn open
My sickening reflection
Mocks me with my name

I am not dead now, yet not alive.
My conscience rages, my soul burns.
I am a hundred voices every day,
Trying desperatley to be one
Who can see his reflection and smile.

My hopes explode, become my fears.
I want her to smile for me again,
Though I will never be able to
Look at the reflection in her eyes.
I just couldn't stand to hurt her again.

 

In love with a memory

She used to be my sunshine:

She smiled for me,
Laughed for me.
She once told me she was mine:
Her wonderful brown curls,
Her brightly sparkling eyes.
She was everything I wanted:
Loving and gentle,
Beautiful and kind.
Now my dreams are haunted:
Her loving touches,
Her tender reliance.
She relies upon another now:
Growing ever stonger,
Laughing ever more.

My sunshine has set forever.

 

Pain

Hello pain
My old love
Thank you
For every wasted day
And every restless night
You remind me
That I am still
Not dead.

 

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